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Have battled with bulimia, depression, ana, since I was 14 I was plump, then people teased me. I shrunk to half my size, since then I am terried that I will put on weight. I have a huge complex about my size, I always look fat even if I am 115 pounds. I'm 5'7" people tell me I have a good figure. I feel like an elephant. I am scared of food. I have been in an out of hospital many many times, I have attempted suicide many many times. Its something that I have to learn to live with, as there no tablet or person that can change who I am. Food is evil, I feel depressed all the time, because I never seem to be happy about my body. This is a disease that is terrible to live with. It affected everyone close to me. I feel bad that I do this to them but I cant help. I want to be wafer thin, and blow in the wind like a flower.